My God, When?

MY GOD, WHEN?

Part 8.

If only I had known, I would have abandoned Daniel.

I would have allowed him to suffer.

????He was the first person to approach me though, I had always wanted to be his friend.

Let me say I was his secret admirer not until he voiced it out.

So, I think we both loved each other at first sight. Yes, something mutual between us.

I didn't beg him to talk to me. I was this shy type.

But????

I wish our paths never crossed.

If only he had not asked me to be his friend, my life would have been better.

It was actually love at first sight. I loved him because of his cute face. He is light in complexion. Tall guy. He has six pack.

His lips are pink. I just couldn't resist his lips. The lips some ladies were dying to have a taste of.

For months, I dreamt about him.

My joy knew no bound when he asked me to be his friend.

I didn't even think about it twice. Immediately, I agreed.

See what my life turned to.

Back to my story????

After the incidence I told you about, we still became campus couples. I was actually afraid of losing him and that was why I sticked to him.

For him to tell me he had broken the relationship between him and Darasimi, my heart cleaved to him again. I was on the top of the world.

Dear reader, my real husband came to me. I missed it.

I fumbled!

I wish I could turn the hands of time.

He came but I chased him out of my life.

He came, Daniel's love blinded me.

He came????????????????????????????

He happened to be someone well known to me.

He proposed to me. Immediately, I rejected him.

He really begged me. I said "no".

I insulted him. He cried that day.

He told me God told him I was his wife.

I told him I was engaged.

He went back in tears. Real tears.

I was so happy, Daniel was all mine. . I was sad at the same time.

"What if Daniel later dumps you ?" A voice whispered into my ears.

"I rebuke you, O ye evil spirits. I bound ye negative thoughts" I said.

I remembered that portion of the Bible that says: The desire of the righteous shall be granted.

"Daniel is my desire. It is granted and stamped. No one can reverse it. Although, I'm not a righteous person, Daniel is still mine." I said to myself as I was checking the mirror.

I was not ready to leave Daniel.

I took in again. This time, I aborted the pregnancy myself. I wasn't planning to tie Daniel down with pregnancy since he told me he had no other woman in his life.

I took an abortion pill.

I never knew it was expired.

Immediately I gulped it down with water, I couldn't explain what happened in my internal organs.

After some hours, I began to bleed.

"Damilola, did you use the drug under the bed?" Daniel asked.

I told him "yes".

Instantly, he rushed me to another hospital.

"Damilola, that was the drug I used for you some months ago" Daniel said.

I did not know where the strength to wail came from despite the fact that I was bleeding.

To cut the story short, I lost my womb. Yes, my womb was damaged.

When the news was revealed to Daniel, he didn't say anything. He had a mixed feeling.

I was expecting him to console me. I was expecting him to motivate me that all would be well.

He didn't say "jack".

I became a piece of trash in his sight.

What really pained me was that.....

To be continued